Michael Battalio


Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Half way through college

I'm halfway through college again. After having an unpleasant
freshman year,
an unfulfilling third semester and an unequivocally depressing fourth
semester, it's finally gotten to the point where I'm enjoying
myself. This
last semester, the fastest one I've been through, I've found the most
rewarding. I've decided upon a major (for the third time) that I
finally
think I will be happy with. I've settled upon a few reasonably
diverse and
entertaining groups of friends. And after struggling to cope with
rejection
a couple of times over, I've finally gotten to a point where I can
have a
healthy relationship; I don't have to have my girlfriend around all
the time
just so I can feel fulfilled. The latter is definitely the most
important
point I've come to during this last semester. All the "loves,"
crushes and
girlfriends over the past half a dozen years that I've used to fill
my lack
of self worth all seem a bit childish. Hindsight being 20/20 I can
see that
it was actually a good thing that none of them worked out. Whether
or not my
current relationship works out, I know that if it does end, it won't
end with
me slumping into a six month long depression. Knowing that things can
quickly change, but that you can change just as quickly with them is
a good
place to be in life.

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